24 December 2005
Christmas Eve Service
It was cool, liturgical. Nice to have a formal way of remembering what Christmas is all about.
23 December 2005
3D camera rig
I was up till 5 am working on the new 3D camera rig.
It will probably made of aluminum (the frame so far is)
Pending experimentation, I think it'll work out REALLY COOL!
You see; there were 2 phases, first was a proof of concept that was pretty simple in construction, but probably wouldn't work well due to problems with image perspective.
I think phase one would have too much of a trapezoidal effect, which would have to be corrected digitally to make still pictures, and I lack the video editing software to accurately correct video.
Phase 2 is a much more complex design. It'll take longer to build, but, if my initial calculations (more like imaginations) are correct, it won't have the perspective problems!
22 December 2005
Next project
I've already done 3D (stereographic) still pictures
Next experiments are:
3D QTVR Panoramas: I think this is possible, though the 3D effect might not be that impressive in the wide-angle format
3D movies: Eventually leading to short films? I have yet to create the 3D rig to attach to my camera, which would also make 3D stills easier to make. BUT! when this is done, it will be so cool you will all pee your pants
Next experiments are:
3D QTVR Panoramas: I think this is possible, though the 3D effect might not be that impressive in the wide-angle format
3D movies: Eventually leading to short films? I have yet to create the 3D rig to attach to my camera, which would also make 3D stills easier to make. BUT! when this is done, it will be so cool you will all pee your pants
17 December 2005
Winter is mating season?
Notice they're never just a pair anymore.. tsk tsk, nature has gone awry.
Found these at Wal*Mart
Found these in a front yard while driving around last night
Found these at Wal*Mart
Found these in a front yard while driving around last night
Pizza give-away
Going into the bars is far more interesting and impactful than just giving away pizza outside the bars.
We met so many cool people. And, having just spent a lot of time in one of these bars over the last month or two.... I met more people tonight giving away pizza than I did playing darts and hanging out there...
Looks like a stock photo, eh?
I can't help but giggle
Mmmm, pizza
Nick and I see eye to eye
Ever had a coffee bath?
We met so many cool people. And, having just spent a lot of time in one of these bars over the last month or two.... I met more people tonight giving away pizza than I did playing darts and hanging out there...
Looks like a stock photo, eh?
I can't help but giggle
Mmmm, pizza
Nick and I see eye to eye
Ever had a coffee bath?
16 December 2005
Joke 1
Joke 2
Joke 3
Joke 4Mentos & Diet Coke
Backyard Diet Coke & Mentos experiment.
Filmed with my new digital camera.
experiment 1 - Caffeine Free Diet Coke video 4 mb
experiment 2 - Vanilla Diet Coke - Mentos in my mouth video 14 mb
experiment 3 - same as above, but in bottle video 4 mb
Filmed with my new digital camera.
experiment 1 - Caffeine Free Diet Coke video 4 mbexperiment 2 - Vanilla Diet Coke - Mentos in my mouth video 14 mbexperiment 3 - same as above, but in bottle video 4 mb29 November 2005
05 November 2005
Mr. Soapbox
Evangelicals in a Secular Society Ted Haggard says Galatians bars us from using the law to create a Christian nation.
have not read this. and I shouldn't link what i havent' read. however.. possibly this guy shares my hunch that creating christian law isn't the right approach.
i consider myself fundamentalist.. but i bet a lot of fundamentalists would like to beat me for that. hah. I'll read it later.
have not read this. and I shouldn't link what i havent' read. however.. possibly this guy shares my hunch that creating christian law isn't the right approach.
i consider myself fundamentalist.. but i bet a lot of fundamentalists would like to beat me for that. hah. I'll read it later.
02 November 2005
29 October 2005
Nothing THAT interesting
I was walking with Ralphie through town.
I saw 2 people sitting smoking cigarettes in an alley, next to a VW bus
I had my camera. but 200 speed film!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
woulda been great if i had 800 speed.. and their permisson to photograph of course.
the girl had a shaved head and the guy had a mohawk.
and the colors of the alley were nice.. it was a nice alley, with benches and grass and brick buildings... oh well
I saw 2 people sitting smoking cigarettes in an alley, next to a VW bus
I had my camera. but 200 speed film!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
woulda been great if i had 800 speed.. and their permisson to photograph of course.
the girl had a shaved head and the guy had a mohawk.
and the colors of the alley were nice.. it was a nice alley, with benches and grass and brick buildings... oh well
28 October 2005
My age
***You Are 22 Years Old***
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
What Age Do You Act?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
What Age Do You Act?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/
20 October 2005
Strange things happen at McDonald's
Strange things happen at McD's.
I met 3 girls in a broken down car, which they pushed into the parking lot from somewhere down the street.
I asked if they needed help, they talked more about how I asked to help, than they did in responding to my question.
This trailing off from the main issue was probably due to the alcohol they had been, and were currently drinking. As I pull up, the driver is drinking a 40 of MGD, and there's a bottle of Crown Royale laying in the passenger's seat.
That was interesting... they were really touched that I offered help, though I didn't give any real help. Their car wouldn't start, but I was sure it would after sitting a short time - the driver said this happens with this car.
They commented on my shoes... I was wearing my Lugz.
It almost made me laugh that they commented on them. They were like.. THOSE ARE SO COOL.
One girl was black, the other two acted like they were. lol.
The funny thing is.. Ya know how gay guys can act more feminine than the most prissy girl? It's like these white girls can act more "black" than the most "black" black person.
Offering help made an impact.
Then, inside the restaurant, this guy walks up to me, and starts talking to me.. as if he knows me.. telling me about this show on pbs he saw about Einstein, and Einstein's girlfriend, and relativity, and bombs.
I don't really know where he was going with it, but he picked me to walk up to and talk to about it. It was a little awkward
Strange.
In hindsight, I wonder if God was up to a few things there at McDonald's.
or maybe there was just weird stuff going on.
I didn't hear him speaking to me about anything in particular at McD's that day.
Oh well, I'll keep my eyes open for next time.
I met 3 girls in a broken down car, which they pushed into the parking lot from somewhere down the street.
I asked if they needed help, they talked more about how I asked to help, than they did in responding to my question.
This trailing off from the main issue was probably due to the alcohol they had been, and were currently drinking. As I pull up, the driver is drinking a 40 of MGD, and there's a bottle of Crown Royale laying in the passenger's seat.
That was interesting... they were really touched that I offered help, though I didn't give any real help. Their car wouldn't start, but I was sure it would after sitting a short time - the driver said this happens with this car.
They commented on my shoes... I was wearing my Lugz.
It almost made me laugh that they commented on them. They were like.. THOSE ARE SO COOL.
One girl was black, the other two acted like they were. lol.
The funny thing is.. Ya know how gay guys can act more feminine than the most prissy girl? It's like these white girls can act more "black" than the most "black" black person.
Offering help made an impact.
Then, inside the restaurant, this guy walks up to me, and starts talking to me.. as if he knows me.. telling me about this show on pbs he saw about Einstein, and Einstein's girlfriend, and relativity, and bombs.
I don't really know where he was going with it, but he picked me to walk up to and talk to about it. It was a little awkward
Strange.
In hindsight, I wonder if God was up to a few things there at McDonald's.
or maybe there was just weird stuff going on.
I didn't hear him speaking to me about anything in particular at McD's that day.
Oh well, I'll keep my eyes open for next time.
17 October 2005
People I meet
I think a lot of people really aren't convinced by any of the usual arguments/evidence that American Christians give about God.
Really, what makes Him real? How can they know?
The truth of The Bible and the love of His people are great--But I think that God moving in POWER is what would really get their attention.
If God is real, then He does everything He says He does in The Bible.
But we don't see that here. No wonder people don't believe.
Christianity looks really unbalanced here in America.
I told a co-worker today about what's happening in Mozambique, Africa.
I told him about some of the miracles.
He said to me, "I'm surprised, I didn't think you'd believe in that stuff."
"Why?," I asked.
"Because you're so logical."
"But how could I not believe in the whole thing (Christianity)?!"
So he gave me the argument that he could trip on LSD and say he sees god, etc. And how could I tell him he was wrong?
So then I told him that I could judge it against The Bible, though he doesn't hold that as a standard.
So I ultimately said, "Well, I could ask to see your god do something, and then we could see my God do something, and we'll see who's real, and who's greater."
"As soon as I see your god start doing miracles or signs, then I'll consider it."
"I guess if yours did, then I would too!," he said.
"Touche."
Isn't that the real question?
How can I know your God is real?
How can I know your God is the one true God?
And to me, that is my current #1 reason to "press in" and spend time with God.
I want to see more of his works in my life, and more of his signs all around.
So they would know, and so those who know would know Him more.
Really, what makes Him real? How can they know?
The truth of The Bible and the love of His people are great--But I think that God moving in POWER is what would really get their attention.
If God is real, then He does everything He says He does in The Bible.
But we don't see that here. No wonder people don't believe.
Christianity looks really unbalanced here in America.
I told a co-worker today about what's happening in Mozambique, Africa.
I told him about some of the miracles.
He said to me, "I'm surprised, I didn't think you'd believe in that stuff."
"Why?," I asked.
"Because you're so logical."
"But how could I not believe in the whole thing (Christianity)?!"
So he gave me the argument that he could trip on LSD and say he sees god, etc. And how could I tell him he was wrong?
So then I told him that I could judge it against The Bible, though he doesn't hold that as a standard.
So I ultimately said, "Well, I could ask to see your god do something, and then we could see my God do something, and we'll see who's real, and who's greater."
"As soon as I see your god start doing miracles or signs, then I'll consider it."
"I guess if yours did, then I would too!," he said.
"Touche."
Isn't that the real question?
How can I know your God is real?
How can I know your God is the one true God?
And to me, that is my current #1 reason to "press in" and spend time with God.
I want to see more of his works in my life, and more of his signs all around.
So they would know, and so those who know would know Him more.
What is there to do?
I think there's nothing better to do than to spend time seeking God.
To spend time in his presence is probably the #1 thing to do if you want him to move more powerfully in your life.
So now I need to do this.
To spend time in his presence is probably the #1 thing to do if you want him to move more powerfully in your life.
So now I need to do this.
22 September 2005
Politics.
So, after a political discussion on IRC with some rather unrespectful A holes...
Today I think I'll ditch the two-party system.
The whole system is pretty jacked.. how can anyone expect real change to come from/through it?
people complain about political parties, but to what end? Neither of the two are the right way.
What is the 'right way'?
It's God's way! The Bible is full of those wonderful things called moral absolutes!
and, if you think it's all just religion and rules, wrong! it's spirit too. And not just any spirit. God is the supreme authority in all things. He's it, and you can know him, talk to him, etc.
And if you don't believe in the spiritual, well, I hope something unexplainably spiritual comes your way.
And if you think I'm crazy for believing that stuff, well.... lock me up and throw away the key. -- if you've been given that authority.
And who gives that authority? God! ahahhaa God is in charge, God is in charge.
WHOOT!
And....
I'm giving up on 'covering my ass' in debates. I can be wrong. I'll do what I know is right, and if I learn I was wrong, I'll make another change.
I'll not try to make myself look smart, or demand respect. I may not have respect ever. Or it may be when I am very old. But I cannot grow at the pace others would set for me. If they give non-constructive criticism, they're judging me. Screw that. I'll take advice, but not the judgments of man.
Whatever.
Today I think I'll ditch the two-party system.
The whole system is pretty jacked.. how can anyone expect real change to come from/through it?
people complain about political parties, but to what end? Neither of the two are the right way.
What is the 'right way'?
It's God's way! The Bible is full of those wonderful things called moral absolutes!
and, if you think it's all just religion and rules, wrong! it's spirit too. And not just any spirit. God is the supreme authority in all things. He's it, and you can know him, talk to him, etc.
And if you don't believe in the spiritual, well, I hope something unexplainably spiritual comes your way.
And if you think I'm crazy for believing that stuff, well.... lock me up and throw away the key. -- if you've been given that authority.
And who gives that authority? God! ahahhaa God is in charge, God is in charge.
WHOOT!
And....
I'm giving up on 'covering my ass' in debates. I can be wrong. I'll do what I know is right, and if I learn I was wrong, I'll make another change.
I'll not try to make myself look smart, or demand respect. I may not have respect ever. Or it may be when I am very old. But I cannot grow at the pace others would set for me. If they give non-constructive criticism, they're judging me. Screw that. I'll take advice, but not the judgments of man.
Whatever.
13 September 2005
Great iTunes iMix
Electro Indie Dance
This mix is really interesting. I'd say it is maybe 1/2 to 1/3 of the genre(s) I am into currently.
This doesn't really cover the new brit rock... or synth-brit rock or synth-euro pop
or whatever.
This mix is really interesting. I'd say it is maybe 1/2 to 1/3 of the genre(s) I am into currently.
This doesn't really cover the new brit rock... or synth-brit rock or synth-euro pop
or whatever.
07 September 2005
30 August 2005
28 August 2005
27 August 2005
Overall...
Being a Christian is really confusing.
Because when you're a Christian, your perspective is so different from the world's.
...and unless (and I supposed even if,) you were raised Christian, and everything was explained to you by spiritually mature Christian parents, you're constantly trying to fight the pre-learned world perspective on everything.
e.g. Dating, marriage, attraction... psychology doesn't apply..
ok, so this wasn't a complete thought, it's more of a current feeling.
Because when you're a Christian, your perspective is so different from the world's.
...and unless (and I supposed even if,) you were raised Christian, and everything was explained to you by spiritually mature Christian parents, you're constantly trying to fight the pre-learned world perspective on everything.
e.g. Dating, marriage, attraction... psychology doesn't apply..
ok, so this wasn't a complete thought, it's more of a current feeling.
21 August 2005
The future?
Today during worship in the back, people were dancing, flags were waving, the kids were worshiping.
In the Spiritual we were one domino falling from a Christian mosh pit.
In the Natural a few people more than a 'handful' were dancing and jumping around with just a small fraction of the freedom we actually have.
Oh, GOD! When will you move ME and YOUR PEOPLE to completely let loose?
Let me hear you! Let me be foolish.
What seems such a large leap from our current experience, is just one or two small steps --that look like complete nonsense-- away from something much greater!
I refuse to look at this current 'problem' --getting people (including myself) to open up more in worship-- in a SOULISH way.
Nothin'll get done if I look at it that way.
Spirit, come lead.
In the Spiritual we were one domino falling from a Christian mosh pit.
In the Natural a few people more than a 'handful' were dancing and jumping around with just a small fraction of the freedom we actually have.
Oh, GOD! When will you move ME and YOUR PEOPLE to completely let loose?
Let me hear you! Let me be foolish.
What seems such a large leap from our current experience, is just one or two small steps --that look like complete nonsense-- away from something much greater!
I refuse to look at this current 'problem' --getting people (including myself) to open up more in worship-- in a SOULISH way.
Nothin'll get done if I look at it that way.
Spirit, come lead.
When?
Here in DeKalb, I feel a million years from the mission field.
Sometimes it feels like it'll never happen.
But then.. God is here. Something could happen at any moment!
Sometimes it feels like it'll never happen.
But then.. God is here. Something could happen at any moment!
20 August 2005
Streams Aftermath
Afterwards.. After ministry...
Do you know what I saw?!?!!??!?
I saw our family come together. I saw us celebrate God's wonderful ..... His wonderful what? Just his wonderful..
It was like a family partying, dancing, singing, having fun, letting go...
It -was- a family partying, dancing, singing, having fun, letting go
It was special. It was amazing. I don't ever want it to stop.
Do you know what I saw?!?!!??!?
I saw our family come together. I saw us celebrate God's wonderful ..... His wonderful what? Just his wonderful..
It was like a family partying, dancing, singing, having fun, letting go...
It -was- a family partying, dancing, singing, having fun, letting go
It was special. It was amazing. I don't ever want it to stop.
Streams Ministries 101 Class
If you have even the slightest gifting of the prophetic. Or if you desire it.
Or... if you just want practical teaching on how to hear God better.
Take This Class
Or... if you just want practical teaching on how to hear God better.
Take This Class
10 August 2005
Cashless Society
They talk about in the future there being a cashless society.
I already live there.
Yeah, bad joke, I'd roll my eyes if anyone other than myself said it.
I already live there.
Yeah, bad joke, I'd roll my eyes if anyone other than myself said it.
26 July 2005
25 July 2005 Thoughts
Want to know what I think of while I'm at work?
Here's what I wrote:
Here's what I wrote:
I really want to go to a place where people want to hear the good news.
I can come back, but I want to see a place hungry like that.
I don't care where people are, I want to go find them and reach them.
I want to see the kingdom advance, unfettered by religion.
I want to see sold out people.
I want to encourage them. I want to see them pass me up.
I don't want to talk them down. I want to let them leap, right from the beginning. Isn't that
the right way?
Nothing I own is so important that I would not risk it for following God.
Nothing, and nothing can be.
laying down my rights, for the promise of new life...
laying down your rights is what ya do.
No retaliation, no revenge, no bitterness.
Yet, things wont affect your worth, because it's not set by man.
Your worth is defined by a whole different set of standards.
They're in a whole different place.
22 July 2005
Openness
Everybody admires openness. But who wants to be inspired by it?
Who cares? So what if I'm not perfect, so what if I am rejected or judged by Christians. How about I be open and honest? The only way to live. The only way to grow.
If I wanted your respect, I would pretend. If I wanted your admiration I'd play some role.
Forget me, I am nothing. If you respect me, let it be out of TRUE righteousness, not a fascade.
I don't even want it to be me you respect, only God in me.
And if that means being hated for the next 30 years, so be it.
If that's how long it takes me to get cleaned up, it's worth it, because it's not the short-term respect of man I'm after. It's being right with God.
Playing some part to be seen as a 'good Christian' doesn't glorify God, it glorifies me. Let's have none of that.
And if you admire God's work in me, don't praise me, praise him, and repent.
Who cares? So what if I'm not perfect, so what if I am rejected or judged by Christians. How about I be open and honest? The only way to live. The only way to grow.
If I wanted your respect, I would pretend. If I wanted your admiration I'd play some role.
Forget me, I am nothing. If you respect me, let it be out of TRUE righteousness, not a fascade.
I don't even want it to be me you respect, only God in me.
And if that means being hated for the next 30 years, so be it.
If that's how long it takes me to get cleaned up, it's worth it, because it's not the short-term respect of man I'm after. It's being right with God.
Playing some part to be seen as a 'good Christian' doesn't glorify God, it glorifies me. Let's have none of that.
And if you admire God's work in me, don't praise me, praise him, and repent.
What else?
Those women I've slept with...
I wish I'd never slept with them.
Not that I didn't enjoy it at the time.
I love sex.
Adultery aside. It was a waste of time.
Who is worthy of me? Only one.
Not saying I know who she is...
And for some reason, this only occured to me lately. Once I realized I am desirable.
Once I realized what I'm worth.
To my future wife: I'm sorry. And that's only the beginning.
I wish I'd never slept with them.
Not that I didn't enjoy it at the time.
I love sex.
Adultery aside. It was a waste of time.
Who is worthy of me? Only one.
Not saying I know who she is...
And for some reason, this only occured to me lately. Once I realized I am desirable.
Once I realized what I'm worth.
To my future wife: I'm sorry. And that's only the beginning.
18 July 2005
More on ugly-Christian displays
I don't want to preach.
I just want to tell the truth.
The truth will advance itself, I don't need to defend it with rhetoric. He who has ears, let him hear. They who don't, well, ... I'll pray for them.
It's ok if I don't know all the answers. And it's amazing how the typical arguments I used to be afraid of aren't even arguments anymore.. They're only arguments if you let them be. Things have a way of boiling down, and when they're condensed, it's easy to hit the missing piece of foundational truth. Then it'd be cool if God would show up and reveal it to the person doubting. But if not, I can do what I can, and trust him to do the rest.
I don't have to win the chess game today, I just make a move and let someone else sit down.
I just want to tell the truth.
The truth will advance itself, I don't need to defend it with rhetoric. He who has ears, let him hear. They who don't, well, ... I'll pray for them.
It's ok if I don't know all the answers. And it's amazing how the typical arguments I used to be afraid of aren't even arguments anymore.. They're only arguments if you let them be. Things have a way of boiling down, and when they're condensed, it's easy to hit the missing piece of foundational truth. Then it'd be cool if God would show up and reveal it to the person doubting. But if not, I can do what I can, and trust him to do the rest.
I don't have to win the chess game today, I just make a move and let someone else sit down.
Ugh, God help us.
I was on IRC, where a guy was talking about serious questions, actually, about 'transgendered' people, and then creation/evolution. And this Christian jumps all over him. Full of judgment... Ouch, it sucked. He tells me "I practice what is called Revival Preaching" -- Telling people what they need to hear instead of what they want to hear.
Oh man... I really could say more, but why? It's enough to say.
it was a very "ugly-Christan" experience.
It shocks me to think of how many more people might be reached if we drop the religion.
I should be in a bar right now talking to people about God.
Oh man... I really could say more, but why? It's enough to say.
it was a very "ugly-Christan" experience.
It shocks me to think of how many more people might be reached if we drop the religion.
I should be in a bar right now talking to people about God.
16 July 2005
Vacation Begins.
So I'm looking for WiFi in the bldg.
There's a WAP underneath the bar in our dining area.
It wasn't working.
Someone connected a filter to the phone line, and disconnected the line from the DSL modem.
I fixed it....
WOOHOO! free high speed access for me!
-Chris
There's a WAP underneath the bar in our dining area.
It wasn't working.
Someone connected a filter to the phone line, and disconnected the line from the DSL modem.
I fixed it....
WOOHOO! free high speed access for me!
-Chris
Film Vs Slides
I need to start shooting ONLY slides.
negatives are a waste of time.
they look like crap,they scan like crap, and the photo labs treat them like crap
I always get them back with scratches.
GRrrrr..
negatives are a waste of time.
they look like crap,they scan like crap, and the photo labs treat them like crap
I always get them back with scratches.
GRrrrr..
Flying.
After visiting with my dad, I stopped by my friend Gary's place and he took my flying in his RV-6.
We did barrel rolls and centerline rolls, and flew upside down.
I looked over at him and said "I could get addicted to this."
"Tell me about it," He replied.
Well put.
See pics of the plane HERE
We did barrel rolls and centerline rolls, and flew upside down.
I looked over at him and said "I could get addicted to this."
"Tell me about it," He replied.
Well put.
See pics of the plane HERE
14 July 2005
12 July 2005
11 July 2005
Up late thinking
If you don't already have it, go out and buy My Utmost For His Highest by Oswald Chambers;
Now on with the post..
I've been wondering about my identity. What was I put on earth to do? And not the general stuff I know to do as a Christian, but what are the details? I don't have them! This could bother me.
If I really believed my identity is in Christ, and that my circumstances are ordained by God, that he is true to his promises, and that my goal is to know Him. (not joy, peace, or blessing, but to know Him)
How would my life be different?
I would will to choose His will. I would surrender my plans for myself. I would give up everything and everyone else.
How can I have plans for myself? All my plans need to be God's plans. If I choose my own life, then I'm putting myself on the throne!
I cannot mix my own plans with God's will, I must give up me.
God must be 1st. God must be 2nd and 3rd too. God must be all.
To fulfill God's design means total abandonment to Him. Whenever I want things for myself, the relationship is distorted - July 12th, My Utmost...
What does this mean? If I go after God as everything, I may be poor, uncomfortable. I may leave the plans for a wife, in fact, women may not be attracted to me! People may hate me. People may be repelled by me. I may be misunderstood, judged, persecuted, ridiculed.
I may not get the things I want. And the things that are important to me now may become unimportant. That is a large price!
But anything less wouldn't be satisfying.
Now on with the post..
I've been wondering about my identity. What was I put on earth to do? And not the general stuff I know to do as a Christian, but what are the details? I don't have them! This could bother me.
If I really believed my identity is in Christ, and that my circumstances are ordained by God, that he is true to his promises, and that my goal is to know Him. (not joy, peace, or blessing, but to know Him)
How would my life be different?
I would will to choose His will. I would surrender my plans for myself. I would give up everything and everyone else.
How can I have plans for myself? All my plans need to be God's plans. If I choose my own life, then I'm putting myself on the throne!
I cannot mix my own plans with God's will, I must give up me.
God must be 1st. God must be 2nd and 3rd too. God must be all.
To fulfill God's design means total abandonment to Him. Whenever I want things for myself, the relationship is distorted - July 12th, My Utmost...
What does this mean? If I go after God as everything, I may be poor, uncomfortable. I may leave the plans for a wife, in fact, women may not be attracted to me! People may hate me. People may be repelled by me. I may be misunderstood, judged, persecuted, ridiculed.
I may not get the things I want. And the things that are important to me now may become unimportant. That is a large price!
But anything less wouldn't be satisfying.
Dad
The visit went well, it was a little awkward, but not bad.
He said on the phone "You probably think I didn't care or something." since he hadn't called in 7 years.
I didn't answer, I just didn't go there.
I'm not angry with him. I love him. I'm looking forward to the possibility of building a relationship with him.
He said on the phone "You probably think I didn't care or something." since he hadn't called in 7 years.
I didn't answer, I just didn't go there.
I'm not angry with him. I love him. I'm looking forward to the possibility of building a relationship with him.
09 July 2005
Completely surprising, yet not.
My dad called today.
haven't talked to him since about this time 7 years ago (1998)
completely odd that he calls me...
and completely odd how my week has been.
and completely odd how my dad was a topic that came up in prayer tonight at small group
something which has never really come up at this church... or even lately for that matter.
and now that this all happened, it's not so odd.... looks more like God.
I'm seeing my dad tomorrow (today) I'm driving 1 hr to see him..
this is so weird, I don't know how to react.
I'm really not angry with him.. that's strange too. I don't really know what to say to him...
Another strange thing... he called at about midnight while I was talking to my friend Velvet... a hispanic name came up on the CID and I was like.. weird.
So I click back to Velvet and I'm like guess what.... my dad called, and she's like, "ya know, that's wierd, that's what I thought when you said there was another call."
More later.
haven't talked to him since about this time 7 years ago (1998)
completely odd that he calls me...
and completely odd how my week has been.
and completely odd how my dad was a topic that came up in prayer tonight at small group
something which has never really come up at this church... or even lately for that matter.
and now that this all happened, it's not so odd.... looks more like God.
I'm seeing my dad tomorrow (today) I'm driving 1 hr to see him..
this is so weird, I don't know how to react.
I'm really not angry with him.. that's strange too. I don't really know what to say to him...
Another strange thing... he called at about midnight while I was talking to my friend Velvet... a hispanic name came up on the CID and I was like.. weird.
So I click back to Velvet and I'm like guess what.... my dad called, and she's like, "ya know, that's wierd, that's what I thought when you said there was another call."
More later.
03 July 2005
It feels good in here
Today at church, Donna walks in during worship and says "Wow, it feels good in here."
COOL! 'cause sometimes it's kinda heavy or generally not-fun feeling in here.
What's with all this warfare?
I love Donna's comments because she's so unchurched, it's not filtered (or altered) by 'churching'.
And she's just so sensitive to spiritual stuff. Almost every time she's around and there's church/spiritual stuff going on, she states the (sometimes not-so) obvious spiritual stuff.
02 July 2005
I'm sad.
My great-aunt Libby died last month. I just found out today from Google of all places.
Libby Parod
I'm sad. She was an often ornery yet loving woman. -- and I say that with the utmost respect and regards!
I'm unsure of her salvation.
Was there something more I could have said?
=(
Maybe I'll post a pic of her.
Libby Parod
I'm sad. She was an often ornery yet loving woman. -- and I say that with the utmost respect and regards!
I'm unsure of her salvation.
Was there something more I could have said?
=(
Maybe I'll post a pic of her.
28 June 2005
Quiz Results
You scored as Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan. You are an evangelical in the Wesleyan tradition. You believe that God's grace enables you to choose to believe in him, even though you yourself are totally depraved. The gift of the Holy Spirit gives you assurance of your salvation, and he also enables you to live the life of obedience to which God has called us. You are influenced heavly by John Wesley and the Methodists.
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My life is nothing.
My life is nothing.
Even what I would want it to be is nothing.
Where else is there to go but to God?
What could be better than living in obedience to Him?
Even what I would want it to be is nothing.
Where else is there to go but to God?
What could be better than living in obedience to Him?
24 June 2005
From work
I worked 4 10 hr days this week.
Took Wed off.
This is hard.
I ran behind and I'm here at 10 pm on Friday night.
This sucks.
Being here feels like..... death.
Took Wed off.
This is hard.
I ran behind and I'm here at 10 pm on Friday night.
This sucks.
Being here feels like..... death.
22 June 2005
More on the force
Don't we all want a life full of meaning? The Jedi have this.
Doing good, having a purpose, and a connection to a higher power.
Notice how their lives revolve around their duties as Jedi. Their fearlessness, their selflessness, and self sacrifice.
If only we trusted God(and devoted our lives to Him) the way the Jedi trust the force,...... I can't even describe the awesomeness.
Doing good, having a purpose, and a connection to a higher power.
Notice how their lives revolve around their duties as Jedi. Their fearlessness, their selflessness, and self sacrifice.
If only we trusted God(and devoted our lives to Him) the way the Jedi trust the force,...
Marriage
My idea of marriage is not fully formed, probably because I come from a single-parent family. I don't know what marriage is all about, but I'm thinking now that it's less of a cure for lonliness, and more of companionship.
The longings I've had for a wife now look less like things a wife can fill.
Those feelings of lonliness or completeness look like something for God to fill/heal. Comments?
The longings I've had for a wife now look less like things a wife can fill.
Those feelings of lonliness or completeness look like something for God to fill/heal. Comments?
Holy Spirit > The Force
I took today (Wed) off from work, since I'm working 4 10 hr days now. I went to see Star Wars Episode III. It was cool. I was thinking about "the force" and how the force took the place of God, but was not in itself God. The Jedi were powerless to cause any changes unless they were physically at the point of conflict. Pfft.. weak. Since our power (the holy spirit) is entirely not of us, but of God, we rely on God. And.. Even if we're not at the place that needs help, we can pray from a distance -- interceeding.
Now what I was thinking was... Wouldn't it be cool if we all used technology to alert the other Christians to start interceeding on the behalf of something? Then I got a better idea. God, won't you pour out your Holy Spirit upon us! Won't you pour it out in such strength that we don't need cell phones or the internet, or anything else to alert us to our mission of intercession...
Imagine this... The Holy Spirit alerting Christians all around the world to pray on the behalf of something, no need for technology, no need for communication in a physical way. I am sure this is aleady happening. But it's not happening enough!
Intercession isn't happening enough, and we could use a healthy dose of Holy Spirit telling us when and what to pray for.
God, send us more of your Holy Spirit! In such strength that we all know exactly when and what to pray for! And help us to be radically obedient to your Holy Spirit!
It's not that He's not already doing this, He is. But are we being obedient to listen and obey his leading? Even if we are, we could all use MORE of his presence!
I'm envisioning a time when his presence and power are so strong, there is no question when we're asked to pray. A time when we're so disciplined we'll drop everything and pray, and pray until the job is done!
What if we listened to the Holy Spirit as much as the Jedi listened to 'the force'?!
Now what I was thinking was... Wouldn't it be cool if we all used technology to alert the other Christians to start interceeding on the behalf of something? Then I got a better idea. God, won't you pour out your Holy Spirit upon us! Won't you pour it out in such strength that we don't need cell phones or the internet, or anything else to alert us to our mission of intercession...
Imagine this... The Holy Spirit alerting Christians all around the world to pray on the behalf of something, no need for technology, no need for communication in a physical way. I am sure this is aleady happening. But it's not happening enough!
Intercession isn't happening enough, and we could use a healthy dose of Holy Spirit telling us when and what to pray for.
God, send us more of your Holy Spirit! In such strength that we all know exactly when and what to pray for! And help us to be radically obedient to your Holy Spirit!
It's not that He's not already doing this, He is. But are we being obedient to listen and obey his leading? Even if we are, we could all use MORE of his presence!
I'm envisioning a time when his presence and power are so strong, there is no question when we're asked to pray. A time when we're so disciplined we'll drop everything and pray, and pray until the job is done!
What if we listened to the Holy Spirit as much as the Jedi listened to 'the force'?!
20 June 2005
I broke.
Today I broke. I was listening to WMBI and I started laughing at some really terrible joke the DJ said. Then, something broke. I don't know what, but I felt some kind of latent anger/frustration -- probably directed at God -- about my current circumstances lift.
Later I was listening to Open Line with Dr. Cole, that guy must be old. Man is he wise! I get great stuff out of that show all the time.
He said something interesting, something like; Gaining the ability for spiritual stamina was the mark of spiritual maturity. In that, we all have our ups and downs, but with maturity, we are more spiritually stable.
I like that idea. I am tired of the spiritual roller-coaster of the past few years. I am thankful that things have been pretty smooth lately. Not always the circumstances, but my spiritual health has been.
Later I was listening to Open Line with Dr. Cole, that guy must be old. Man is he wise! I get great stuff out of that show all the time.
He said something interesting, something like; Gaining the ability for spiritual stamina was the mark of spiritual maturity. In that, we all have our ups and downs, but with maturity, we are more spiritually stable.
I like that idea. I am tired of the spiritual roller-coaster of the past few years. I am thankful that things have been pretty smooth lately. Not always the circumstances, but my spiritual health has been.
19 June 2005
Twilight
What good is it to anyone if I tone down my faith? I need to show it and live it all the way. To my experience level and beyond. I can not limit my faith only to what I have seen. I need to study the gaps in the bridges I have been taught. --People often teach me some truth 'bridge' and there are gaps in it because they expect I will just accept what they are saying. Sometimes people teach me bridges that they themselves don't know all the pieces to, they just were taught to them, so they tell them to me. I want to know that the holes and gaps in the bridges have substance in them. I need to know they're solid. And I need to study the theological difference points So I can use that knowledge to clarify things and unify the Body.
People are drawn to the glory of God within me, and about me, and to His Word. Not to a non-threatening presentation. Is the only reason this works due to the points of bright light that still shine through the easy, non-threatening curtain? Maybe I am being too harsh on seeker-friendly stuff. Maybe those places are nurserys? I'd really like there to be somewhere that's fully functional. Some place where the babies and the elderly go, and everyone in between, the sick, and the healthy. All benefiting from each other's gifts and experiences.
I need to live life as if everyone around me were wanting to chase after God completely. I owe them that, I owe ME that. People without understanding would follow me around as I demonstrated the kingdom. Even if they didn't openly accept it. The curiosity and acknowledgment of the authenticity (of God, really) would draw them. And God would show himself in me. Whether they follow me to the beach, or just observe from life, they're watching whether they admit it or not.
for this whole 'beach' thing to make sense, see the bottom of this post
To walk in faith (not only understanding) will glorify God, and make opportunity to advance the kingdom in their life and mine.
If my first priority is faith and prayer; and it's REAL, it will work. Would God not come through? What if I fail? I'm afraid of stepping out and not seeing fruit. Not only because I might look wrong, but because I fear to lose faith by trying to earn more.
Does that have anything to do with the parable of the talents?!
Will God leave me hanging? Not only to look foolish, but to feel failed by God? It requires great faith to believe God, even when your experience does not match your expectations.
Bill Johnson said something like, if you're ok with looking wrong when are, you'll be ok when you look wrong when you're not.. Or something like that. It's relevant, really. ;P
I'll have to look that up on my DVDs and write an updated post.
To expect perfection from myself (which I often do) is pride. To be afraid to be wrong is pride. Pride could cause religion, stagnation, etc..
The humble will learn God's mysteries.
The humble will advance the kingdom.
The humble could teach me a thing or two.
I want to be humble. I want to be O.K. with being wrong.
I fail no one if I am wrong.
I fail only if I quit trying.
Negative results aren't failure, they're progress -- finding my way to the right solution. e.g. Thomas Edison and his thousands of 'failures' when inventing the light bulb.
ok, to make sense of the whole "following me to the beach" comment, (hey, I was half asleep when I wrote this down in my journal) -- I was thinking about this, and saw a picture in my mind, of ministering to people at the sea shore. Some were skeptical, some disagreed with me, some openly talked against me, and God. But they followed me to the beach. They were interested and curious, even if they openly disagreed with me, and talked bad about me. The people in this vision were not of this culture or country (USA). But even the people in the U.S. are watching. If I acted from a kingdom perspective at work, they'd call me crazy, maybe I'd get fired. But maybe they'd see that I was absolutely crazy for something that was absolutely real. I can act a fool if God is glorified. What if I get fired from 10 jobs for acting out of reality (God's reality, not the fallen world's) ????? But what if after 10 jobs, God started moving in my life, and backed up all the stuff I proclaimed from the bible?!?!!???!!!
Where do I start? Well, first of all, when there's a problem... #1, pray. And openly suggest prayer to unbelievers around me (and sometimes even harder -- to believers).
That's where I start. If God is real, and he answers prayer; I will pray.
People are drawn to the glory of God within me, and about me, and to His Word. Not to a non-threatening presentation. Is the only reason this works due to the points of bright light that still shine through the easy, non-threatening curtain? Maybe I am being too harsh on seeker-friendly stuff. Maybe those places are nurserys? I'd really like there to be somewhere that's fully functional. Some place where the babies and the elderly go, and everyone in between, the sick, and the healthy. All benefiting from each other's gifts and experiences.
I need to live life as if everyone around me were wanting to chase after God completely. I owe them that, I owe ME that. People without understanding would follow me around as I demonstrated the kingdom. Even if they didn't openly accept it. The curiosity and acknowledgment of the authenticity (of God, really) would draw them. And God would show himself in me. Whether they follow me to the beach, or just observe from life, they're watching whether they admit it or not.
for this whole 'beach' thing to make sense, see the bottom of this post
To walk in faith (not only understanding) will glorify God, and make opportunity to advance the kingdom in their life and mine.
If my first priority is faith and prayer; and it's REAL, it will work. Would God not come through? What if I fail? I'm afraid of stepping out and not seeing fruit. Not only because I might look wrong, but because I fear to lose faith by trying to earn more.
Does that have anything to do with the parable of the talents?!
Will God leave me hanging? Not only to look foolish, but to feel failed by God? It requires great faith to believe God, even when your experience does not match your expectations.
Bill Johnson said something like, if you're ok with looking wrong when are, you'll be ok when you look wrong when you're not.. Or something like that. It's relevant, really. ;P
I'll have to look that up on my DVDs and write an updated post.
To expect perfection from myself (which I often do) is pride. To be afraid to be wrong is pride. Pride could cause religion, stagnation, etc..
The humble will learn God's mysteries.
The humble will advance the kingdom.
The humble could teach me a thing or two.
I want to be humble. I want to be O.K. with being wrong.
I fail no one if I am wrong.
I fail only if I quit trying.
Negative results aren't failure, they're progress -- finding my way to the right solution. e.g. Thomas Edison and his thousands of 'failures' when inventing the light bulb.
ok, to make sense of the whole "following me to the beach" comment, (hey, I was half asleep when I wrote this down in my journal) -- I was thinking about this, and saw a picture in my mind, of ministering to people at the sea shore. Some were skeptical, some disagreed with me, some openly talked against me, and God. But they followed me to the beach. They were interested and curious, even if they openly disagreed with me, and talked bad about me. The people in this vision were not of this culture or country (USA). But even the people in the U.S. are watching. If I acted from a kingdom perspective at work, they'd call me crazy, maybe I'd get fired. But maybe they'd see that I was absolutely crazy for something that was absolutely real. I can act a fool if God is glorified. What if I get fired from 10 jobs for acting out of reality (God's reality, not the fallen world's) ????? But what if after 10 jobs, God started moving in my life, and backed up all the stuff I proclaimed from the bible?!?!!???!!!
Where do I start? Well, first of all, when there's a problem... #1, pray. And openly suggest prayer to unbelievers around me (and sometimes even harder -- to believers).
That's where I start. If God is real, and he answers prayer; I will pray.
16 June 2005
Competition.
So while reading Cindy's Blog today I was reminded of a thought I had a while back.
When I get competitive in a bad way, It is because I'm judging myself. Wrong-hearted competition with others comes out of me judging me. I can not judge me. That is God's job.
It's important to remember that my identity is in Christ, not in my competency in whatever area I am being competitive in.
This thought could really be expanded upon... I bet it has something to do with critisizm.
When I get competitive in a bad way, It is because I'm judging myself. Wrong-hearted competition with others comes out of me judging me. I can not judge me. That is God's job.
It's important to remember that my identity is in Christ, not in my competency in whatever area I am being competitive in.
This thought could really be expanded upon... I bet it has something to do with critisizm.
15 June 2005
Thoughts for today
'...Can I be free from the chains of my religion
They wrap around my head and blind my eyes of faith
And I feel dangerous cos I hunger for the truth...'
I was listening to this Delirious song today (lyrics) and those words really hit me.
They wrap around my head and blind my eyes of faith
And I feel dangerous cos I hunger for the truth...'
I was listening to this Delirious song today (lyrics) and those words really hit me.
Elevator Dream
I had a dream last night:
I went to a mall in Chicago, similar to Watertower Place. Went to the top floor (30th) to look around and came back down to 1. I came back, the next day maybe? It was Sunday now, and it was late in the evening. I thought the stores might be closed, but I would give it a try anyway. There was a sign in the window of the bottom floor that showed the closing times of the stores, but they closed at different times.
At the entrance to the 1st floor there was a guy who might have been a guard. He had an earring and looked gay, but I don't think he was gay. He didn't tell me I couldn't go in, but he was an obstacle. I yelled "drugs!" and some cops came to investigate, as drug dealers across the street hid their stash. While the guy was tied up explaining to the cops, I went into the building. There were a few people trickling out of the building, probably people leaving work. I got into the elevator. I went to the top floor --the 30th floor-- and looked around but everything was closed down. I got back into the elevator and pushed the down button, interestingly not the 1 button. The elevator moved fast, I could tell by the G forces. On the way down I jumped, and rather than just being in the air for an instant, I was off the floor about 6-12 inches for a few seconds.. because I was free-falling. The elevator slowed to stop at a different floor, and people got on. Every time the elevator would stop, I would have to press the down button again, it would forget that I had hit the down button. I had to explain to people as they got on why I was doing this. Different floors were different things.. many were offices, one was an executive office with a fancy door, but nobody got on or off.
The building had 2 levels where you could access the street. 1st floor and 8th floor. Some people were getting off at the 8th floor, I got off at the 1st floor.
I woke up.
Interestingly, I happend across the dream interpretation chart my mom bought from streams. Maybe I'll post what I got out of that at a later time, in the meantime, feel free to interpret that one.
I went to a mall in Chicago, similar to Watertower Place. Went to the top floor (30th) to look around and came back down to 1. I came back, the next day maybe? It was Sunday now, and it was late in the evening. I thought the stores might be closed, but I would give it a try anyway. There was a sign in the window of the bottom floor that showed the closing times of the stores, but they closed at different times.
At the entrance to the 1st floor there was a guy who might have been a guard. He had an earring and looked gay, but I don't think he was gay. He didn't tell me I couldn't go in, but he was an obstacle. I yelled "drugs!" and some cops came to investigate, as drug dealers across the street hid their stash. While the guy was tied up explaining to the cops, I went into the building. There were a few people trickling out of the building, probably people leaving work. I got into the elevator. I went to the top floor --the 30th floor-- and looked around but everything was closed down. I got back into the elevator and pushed the down button, interestingly not the 1 button. The elevator moved fast, I could tell by the G forces. On the way down I jumped, and rather than just being in the air for an instant, I was off the floor about 6-12 inches for a few seconds.. because I was free-falling. The elevator slowed to stop at a different floor, and people got on. Every time the elevator would stop, I would have to press the down button again, it would forget that I had hit the down button. I had to explain to people as they got on why I was doing this. Different floors were different things.. many were offices, one was an executive office with a fancy door, but nobody got on or off.
The building had 2 levels where you could access the street. 1st floor and 8th floor. Some people were getting off at the 8th floor, I got off at the 1st floor.
I woke up.
Interestingly, I happend across the dream interpretation chart my mom bought from streams. Maybe I'll post what I got out of that at a later time, in the meantime, feel free to interpret that one.
Swimming Pool Dream
I went to an entertaining show, like the ones at Disney World where they dive and stuff into a pool and throw flaming sticks around, etc.
I was there with a girl that I know of, I haven't seen her in a long time. Her name's Janet. She was someone who would hang out in the circle of friends I had around the end of HS, and the few awkward years after graduating.
I was going to throw her into the pool from a diving platform. She is small, so this would normally be a fun and easy thing to do. But there was a railing at the edge of the platform, so I had to throw her from underneath the bar. I didn't want to throw her too short and have her hit the crowd or the ground. I swung her forward and back a few times.. you know.. 1... 2... 3... But I didn't throw her.
The crowd was watching, some were cheering, then they waited in suspense to see if I'd do it. I didn't. It was hard not to throw her with the crowd wanting to see it, but it just didn't seem safe, and really I started to think about how this would be annoying and inconvenient to her. So I didn't do it, even though it would disappoint some people.
Any ideas?
I was there with a girl that I know of, I haven't seen her in a long time. Her name's Janet. She was someone who would hang out in the circle of friends I had around the end of HS, and the few awkward years after graduating.
I was going to throw her into the pool from a diving platform. She is small, so this would normally be a fun and easy thing to do. But there was a railing at the edge of the platform, so I had to throw her from underneath the bar. I didn't want to throw her too short and have her hit the crowd or the ground. I swung her forward and back a few times.. you know.. 1... 2... 3... But I didn't throw her.
The crowd was watching, some were cheering, then they waited in suspense to see if I'd do it. I didn't. It was hard not to throw her with the crowd wanting to see it, but it just didn't seem safe, and really I started to think about how this would be annoying and inconvenient to her. So I didn't do it, even though it would disappoint some people.
Any ideas?
Defensive Prayer
I really try not to pray defensive prayer. There is no butt-plate in the armor. His kingdom only advances.. And why do they call 'retreats' retreats anyway? Why not call them War-Camps? That sounds militant, lol, but really, something else.
Really, at group last Friday, there was a little defensive praying going on. I put a stop to that by praying violent, dangerous prayers. I don't want things to just stay away from my friend, I want demons to flee in fear of the power of the Holy Spirit upon that man!
Really, at group last Friday, there was a little defensive praying going on. I put a stop to that by praying violent, dangerous prayers. I don't want things to just stay away from my friend, I want demons to flee in fear of the power of the Holy Spirit upon that man!
Lightning Bugs
So last night I was outside around midnight and saw a lightning bug. It was fast, and it flew through the yard with short bursts of light. Either that, or there were about 20 bugs all in a row that looked like a beleivable flight-path.
And what's with these bugs anyway? When I was a kid they'd light up for several seconds at a time, flying around. Now adays they are more like a strobe. Maybe it's an adaptation to evade the wiffle-ball bats used to swat them out of the air. --But then that'd just be my yard. >=)
And what's with these bugs anyway? When I was a kid they'd light up for several seconds at a time, flying around. Now adays they are more like a strobe. Maybe it's an adaptation to evade the wiffle-ball bats used to swat them out of the air. --But then that'd just be my yard. >=)
14 June 2005
Isn't it REAL?
Who wants to go target the poor, the drunks, the drug addicts?
Where's our mission? What are we doing? I don't want to have church for Christians.
Let's leave the 99 and look for the 1. In doing so we'll grow closer, we'll change lives, we'll do good.
It's a mission. A purpose.. more than coming just for Sundays.
what if 99% of the people leave? That could be hard.. But why not have 10 people who want to change the world instead of 100 who
don't want to do anything.
Where's the passion? Where's the love for God? What are they lacking that would make them alive?
Robbie talked about feeling bad if he didn't go evangelize, etc.
DUH! that revitalizes us!
How bad do we want it?
Let's ask them, and hope they answer honestly.. Why aren't you on fire for God? what is it that you don't believe? What is it that feels dead? Let's minister to the misconceptions about God. Let's be honest if we don't believe, let's be honest if we know we're being disobedient.
If you talk about it, it could get better.
If this is real, how can we stop ourselves from praising him? From doing the Father's work, from seeking after it with all we have.
If it's not real, why are we here? Why bother showing up on Sunday?
If it is real... let's move forward, let's die to ourselves. Let's be honest about where we're at. No more pride.
What will it take to convict us? Seeing an example of someone chasing after God?
Maybe that'll let us see what we're missing.
Where's our mission? What are we doing? I don't want to have church for Christians.
Let's leave the 99 and look for the 1. In doing so we'll grow closer, we'll change lives, we'll do good.
It's a mission. A purpose.. more than coming just for Sundays.
what if 99% of the people leave? That could be hard.. But why not have 10 people who want to change the world instead of 100 who
don't want to do anything.
Where's the passion? Where's the love for God? What are they lacking that would make them alive?
Robbie talked about feeling bad if he didn't go evangelize, etc.
DUH! that revitalizes us!
How bad do we want it?
Let's ask them, and hope they answer honestly.. Why aren't you on fire for God? what is it that you don't believe? What is it that feels dead? Let's minister to the misconceptions about God. Let's be honest if we don't believe, let's be honest if we know we're being disobedient.
If you talk about it, it could get better.
If this is real, how can we stop ourselves from praising him? From doing the Father's work, from seeking after it with all we have.
If it's not real, why are we here? Why bother showing up on Sunday?
If it is real... let's move forward, let's die to ourselves. Let's be honest about where we're at. No more pride.
What will it take to convict us? Seeing an example of someone chasing after God?
Maybe that'll let us see what we're missing.
13 June 2005
Seeing more of God
I don't have to go to Africa to see more of God.. Though I'd probably see more, quicker.
How does the kingdom work? Faith? Desparation? The truth is the truth wherever it is. If God's doing amazing stuff in Africa, is it because the faith is higher? The hearts are softer? There's desparation?!?
How do I see more of God here, now?
How does the kingdom work? Faith? Desparation? The truth is the truth wherever it is. If God's doing amazing stuff in Africa, is it because the faith is higher? The hearts are softer? There's desparation?!?
How do I see more of God here, now?
Wed Lunch worship jam
How bout a Wed lunchtime worship jam?
Sweet!.... whoever wants to come.. I bet the staff would dig it..
I'm sitting at work, and I want to sing soooo omuch...
drives me nuts I'm stuck here..
Sweet!.... whoever wants to come.. I bet the staff would dig it..
I'm sitting at work, and I want to sing soooo omuch...
drives me nuts I'm stuck here..
You're a missionary wherever you are.
In whatever community you're in.
You could be a missionary to the poor.. You wouldn't have to BE poor, but just be in their community..
Maybe not use your wealth. Live with them, but don't use your abundant cash for a new Jaguar to park outside your cardboard box.
Our church is called to be a community. Is everyone waiting for someone to come along who's just like them? We wouldn't do that if we were missionaries! We'd be reaching out, building bridges to people who aren't -just-like-us-.
I'm not up on church lingo, but that sounds missional.
You could be a missionary to the poor.. You wouldn't have to BE poor, but just be in their community..
Maybe not use your wealth. Live with them, but don't use your abundant cash for a new Jaguar to park outside your cardboard box.
Our church is called to be a community. Is everyone waiting for someone to come along who's just like them? We wouldn't do that if we were missionaries! We'd be reaching out, building bridges to people who aren't -just-like-us-.
I'm not up on church lingo, but that sounds missional.
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