Genius

I'm not ok with being ordinary.

It's a recurring fear to think that I might not have some area of genius.
I think it's one of my worst fears. To live my entire life, not being world-class in any one category.

I know I should be OK with just being God's kid. Perhaps a lot of this fear is due to a performance-based mindset.

Ordinary life sounds boring. Maybe I could grow to love it, but I'm scared when I think of being trapped in an ordinary life...

What's my problem?
Vision?
Inspiration?
Recognition?
Motivation?
Follow-through?

I want to break through and accomplish something.

This is an unfinished thought, maybe I'll add more later.
I'm posting it now because I'm not sure if I'll ever get back to it.